Promise Maker

My little boy loves him some bedtime snuggles.

And while SuperNanny would have my hide  that I indulge him in his need for mommy to snuggle him to sleep, I do it anyway.

Because he’ll only be this little for a little while. Time is fleeting and I’m going to miss it when he doesn’t ask me to snuggle anymore.

Also, it’s a nice little break from the rest of the noise going on in the house.

It’s quiet, and sometimes, I fall asleep. And then I wake up in that funk where you’re all, “What time is it?! Is it morning yet?! Where am I?! What’s my name?!”

But also, in those quiet moments of snuggling with my only little boy, God has spoken quietly and gently to my heart.

A couple of nights ago, I had one of those moments.

I knew that once every child in my care had gone to sleep, Stephen and I were going to finally watch the last session from the Passion 2013 conference. (If you don’t know what the Passion conference/movement is, google it. And be amazed.)

I had heard great things about John Piper’s message that he gave and I was really looking forward to it and hoping to gain some nugget of wisdom, some truth to heal my aching heart.

And as I lay there, next to my sweet little boy slumbering, I felt God say,

There is a path through this pain.

A path through pain.

And then I waited a little more. “Okay. So….annnnndddd…?”

I mean, that’s way too succinct, right? “There is a path through this pain.”

In all my human-ness I’m thinking, that’s not exactly a quotable statement, Lord. And it’s a little too…abrupt.

Yeah. Like God can’t just speak whole universes into existence with just a few words, and I think I need a whole thesis from Him on HOW and WHY and WHEN.

But all I got was,

There is a path through this pain.

And then I remembered a message I heard once. And I don’t remember who said it, but I remember someone remarking on the 23rd Psalm.

Though I walk THROUGH the valley of the shadow…

God doesn’t intend for us to stay there. We are walking THROUGH.

There is a path THROUGH this pain.

And so with that, Stephen and I snuggled in front of the computer to watch the last of the conference online.

And they sang this song that I felt sure that I had heard before. But the words and the meaning resonated within me deeper than it ever had before.

When I went to search for the song later, and I mean I SEARCHED, I came to the conclusion that it has not been yet released. I don’t even know who to give credit to for the music or lyrics yet.

But it felt so personal to me, so moving and so pointedly authentic, that I couldn’t understand how it seemed so familiar.

I think God gives us those moments sometimes. Where that quote, that word, that song, that lyric was so perfect and so fitted for where you are that it seems like you’ve known it for ┬álong time. And yet, you’ve never heard it before.

I have been praying that God would reveal a promise to me. Something to be seen. Something to look to.

And, I don’t have a specific “something” yet. But these lyrics are my answer right now.

Because even though I don’t have a “promise” that I can verbalize or even glimpse myself right now, I know that HE is the PROMISE MAKER. The PROMISE KEEPER.

And He will reveal everything we need to know in His time.

Lord Our God

Promise maker, promise keeper
You finish what you begin
Our provision through the desert
You see it through til the end
You see it through til the end

The Lord our God is ever faithful
Never changing through the ages
From this darkness You will lead us
and forever we will say You’re the Lord our God

In the silence, in the waiting
still we can know You are good
All your plans are for Your glory
Yes we can know You are good
Yes we can know You are good

We won’t move without You, we won’t move without You
You’re the light of all and all that we need